At the last of the moment I decided to cancel my no-refund flight to the US to visit a friend and use the rest of the time for getting professional expertise on the interactive Tango project I’ve been working on for a while. My friend Sam didn’t have the time to receive me as planned and my sister will have the house full at the beginning of my visit; so I would have had to stay a few days somewhere else, perhaps in NY. Or, I change my plans and spend the whole time in NY and really get deep into Tango mode at every hour possible.
My thoughts where getting busier than my intuition could follow its inputs. Then, I stopped at a jerk; what the fuck am I doing! And yes, the plane will fly anyway and the friend or family member may visit me instead. Great ideas.
It has been more than a year since I last posted on my blog and yes, a hell of a lot has been going on in my life. From environmental MAS studies in Basel to Shamanismus in Gaehwil to work for a controlling office of labor worker’s pay to Tango Passion in Zurich and plenty of “no-go” affairs after the termination of a long-term relationship. But I am still kicking my way through life and making plenty of new friends an foes as I stomp along with my barefooted shoes.
The skills of justifying my behavior, as I’ve learned, is quite touchy indeed. In justification lies the foundation for my own personal justice on what I find as morally correct. So with each new justification, I web my own limitations of what I can or cannot do. Because I haven’t travelled in 10 years such a distance per flight; because my Tango project will get new non-dancing people into this fabulous motion of dance; because a new relationship may become my new destiny; it is okay to be doing this and flying the great distance once again in my life before I may embellish the hidden world with my very own precious beauty. And, I was right in the middle of my own bull-shit justification! Grow-up I exclaimed. Because I can justify my behavior, doesn’t make what I am doing ANY BETTER AT ALL. I am just as much to blame as all the rest.
Elisabeth Kolbert Elizabeth Kolbert – The sixth extinction may have it all right; but, she flies to her interviews and has produced three children to this already way overcrowded people planet. Managers making the new Tesla automobiles may be producing the most efficient cars on earth; but, they fly to most meetings and use up raw material and tons of grey energy. Everywhere I look, I can spot justification of human behavior.
It was pretty funny when I told my friends and family, that I will not be flying; because I just cannot compromise this with my newly made environmental knowledge and actually knowledge which hasn’t been kept secret for the public over several decades now. The level of CO2 is critical. And yes, it has been at higher levels before, some 50 millions years ago perhaps. Just with this tiny difference that it took a few thousand years to get there and gave its flora and fauna enough time for necessary changes. We have gotten to this level of CO2 404 parts per million in the atmosphere at “just-in-time” speed of modern time industrialisation. Well hell, the industry may have shifted as the width of our ties; but the flora and fauna is not used to this speed of human volacity. No time to be changing their delicate skins or internal organs; plus, if there had been time for this, there is no migration space left for them to migrate to on a natural basis of environmental climate change. Perhaps a good spot would have been somewhere more up north, but there now is a city or a mall or a parking lot or an cleaner-production industry park. So this speed of change and the space for change are the human-factor of species killing. No justification.
The response from my friend Sam, encouraged me to create this new piece of thought on this platform. I leave his words untouched:
“as humans- esp. Americans- live a life of consumerism. Hardly respect the delicate and fragile environment. People travel to New York for shopping! Or drive to nearby grocery with a 4×4 to get milk , Fly to California to attend a football game! Or go on a weekend to Las Vegas to gamble and come back ! Globally they talk about global warming but also they talk about global dimming due to smog. After 9/11 all flights were grounded -no plane to fly for several days- so a surprise discovery had been that the weather was all of a sudden bright and sunny for that weekend ! The study shows with satellite images a huge atmospheric difference before and after the event observing much less clouds/smog that was produced by thousands of daily jet planes produces ! It is man-made, self-inflicted phenomenon.”